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Things I've Noticed About Writing Personal Essays

Kia Orion | | 5 min read

A few things I've noticed about personal essay writing, after reading too many and attempting a few:


The best personal essays aren't really about the writer. They use the writer's life as a lens for looking at something larger. James Baldwin's "Notes of a Native Son" is about his father's funeral. But it's also about the Harlem riots, and underneath both of those, it's about what it means to inherit rage. The personal part is the entry point. The room is always bigger.


Readers trust specificity. "I was sad" does almost nothing. "I sat in the parking lot of a Walgreens for forty minutes because I couldn't figure out which door to walk through" does a lot. The concrete detail is where the feeling lives.


Most first drafts of personal essays are the writer figuring out what they think. The second draft is where you write it for someone else. Those are two completely different documents wearing the same title.


Claudia Rankine's Citizen: An American Lyric uses "you" instead of "I." It puts the reader inside the experience rather than asking them to watch from outside. It shouldn't work. It's disorienting. But that disorientation is the point, and I think about it every time I'm deciding which pronoun to start with.


If you're writing a personal essay and you know exactly what you think about the subject before you start, the essay is probably going to feel flat. The best ones have a quality of the writer thinking on the page, working something out in real time, following a thread they can't quite see the end of yet.


Truman Capote's "A Christmas Memory" is technically about making fruitcakes with his elderly cousin. What it's actually about is the last year of a relationship before the world pulled two people apart. He never says this directly. He trusts the fruitcakes and the kite-flying to carry the weight. That restraint is the whole essay.


Ending a personal essay is harder than ending almost any other kind of writing.


I'm not sure why so many personal essays work better when they circle back to an image from the beginning rather than arriving at a clean conclusion. Maybe it's because real life doesn't conclude. It repeats, with small variations. The circular structure feels more honest than the linear one.


Ta-Nehisi Coates wrote Between the World and Me as a letter to his teenage son. The form gave him permission to be direct in a way that a traditional essay might not have. When you're writing to one person, you stop hedging. You stop qualifying every sentence for an imagined critic, and you just say what you mean.


The best personal essays tend to have a single controlling image, one physical thing that keeps returning. A house. A pair of shoes somebody left by the door. The image does the structural work that a thesis statement does in an academic paper, but it does it without the reader feeling managed.

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There's a temptation to make yourself the hero of your own essay. The more interesting move, almost always, is to make yourself the person who was wrong, or confused, or late to understanding something that everyone around you already knew.


Baldwin once wrote, "I love America more than any other country in the world, and, exactly for this reason, I insist on the right to criticize her perpetually." That sentence works because the love comes first. In personal essay writing, the criticism lands only when the reader can feel the tenderness underneath it. If you start with the complaint, you've lost them.


Short paragraphs in a personal essay create the feeling of intimacy. Long paragraphs create the feeling of being pulled under. The best essayists alternate between the two, though I don't think most of them are doing it consciously, and I wonder sometimes whether the rhythm of a good essay is something you can learn or whether it's more like an ear for music, something you either develop through years of reading or you don't, something that lives somewhere between instinct and accumulated exposure to sentences that work.


The personal essay might be the only form where the writer's uncertainty is an asset. Fiction requires you to know things, and journalism requires you to verify them. But a personal essay lets you say "I don't know," and somehow that draws the reader closer.


Most people who want to write personal essays are afraid of the same thing: that their life isn't interesting enough. This misunderstands what makes a personal essay work. Capote wrote about fruitcakes. Baldwin wrote about a funeral. The subject doesn't carry the essay. The quality of attention does.


You can tell when an essay was written too soon after the experience. The emotions are still raw and unprocessed, and the writer is performing their feelings rather than examining them. Distance doesn't weaken a personal essay. It usually makes the seeing sharper.


If you write every day, even just a few sentences about what you noticed or what confused you, you're building a library of raw material for personal essays. You won't know which entries matter until months later, when something connects and you realize you've been circling the same question for weeks without seeing it.


The difference between a diary entry and a personal essay is that the essay has been shaped. The feelings are real but the structure is deliberate. Someone went back and decided where it should start, what to leave out, and where it should stop. That shaping is invisible when it's done well. Which is why so many readers think personal essays are easy to write.

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Kia Orion

Author of The Writer's Daily Practice, the #1 Bestselling book in Journal Writing and Writing Skills. He writes a free daily reflection for writers.

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